Hell Has Come To Breakfast

2017 is going to be the worst year of my life. I hope I can end this nightmare this year. No one knows me, I can leave as I please without causing harm. God will not stop sticking knives in me. Under no circumstances is the torture to end. I can know what but not why. I do know the harder I try to survive the more I will be hurt for it. I only do so to keep up appearances to keep the monsters backed off. There is NO understanding in this world. What's worse, we have to pretend there is, as if the monsters could really help. It's easy to spot the monsters: it's everyone who thinks they are not one. Will God ever love life as much as death? Loving life is the ultimate sin meting out the ultimate punishment. Bite the bitter fruit of death to stay alive or starve to death. Those are our choices. One thing God hates above is dishonesty. That's why evil is bolder and more open every day. I'm doing everything I can to make this world die. We who live in it have no say in it. The mob has murder in its heart and the mob always wins without fail. The mob is like the great flood, wiping out both the good and the bad. What purpose does all this pain serve? Who can comprehend such suffering? I hope I don't see the end of this year. My fate was sealed with Emily anyway. God is angry I was dishonest with her. I was supposed to be honestly rejected. God doesn't need friends or girlfriends and cannot understand those who do. Same goes for money. Terrorist attack news make me feel good. They think they can solve the problem by catching the attackers, always treating the symptom, not the cause. That guarantees the end will come. I cannot wait for them to figure that out. They'll keep up with their "wars" on everything they say they hate until nothing is left. Hell, and more hell. All acts of kindness will be bitterly rewarded in merciless cruelty. In this way God hopes to save the world? Let the dying die. God has no use for the innocent living. The universe has spoken and hell will be served. Only the dead will be safe.